i think i have cyclothymia. and i've had disordered eating for the past 3-4 years, although it's mostly okay right now. i'm trying to write one of the seoulfulness prompts with ED and... i don't know. i feel really weird about it. writing about it doesn't trigger me, but i'm still very numb to it. and i'm scared to think about it too hard, to give that away and put it in writing. i don't want to relive that again.
i still intend to finish that fill, though :( and of course there won't be any magical healing genitalia or love saves all~ kind of thing, but in the back of my head, i still feel like i don't have the right to write stories with ED. that i'll never be able to really show other people what the heck was going on inside my head. or anybody else's head or why it happened at all.
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(Anonymous) 2012-08-25 02:38 am (UTC)(link)i still intend to finish that fill, though :( and of course there won't be any magical healing genitalia or love saves all~ kind of thing, but in the back of my head, i still feel like i don't have the right to write stories with ED. that i'll never be able to really show other people what the heck was going on inside my head. or anybody else's head or why it happened at all.