i just.... i don't know, i say i want to talk about it but i don't want to be looked at with pity irl. i enjoy myself with her and i want it to stay that way, i don't want her to stop and frown and get sad every time i talk about my mom, i don't want her to try and hug me every time the word 'cancer' comes up, i don't want any sympathy for something that hasn't even happened yet. even though it will because apparently it's only a matter of when, not if?? but thank you for the encouragement anon, maybe i'm not giving her enough credit
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(Anonymous) 2012-12-18 12:42 am (UTC)(link)