ooh, that's kind of a sticky situation, then. :( i'd refrain from it for now? usually i'm all for kissing, but do what you need to do to make things less complicated!
i just really really want to. today i pretty much walked her to her door, holding hands, and she was like "do you want to go somewhere else?" and i made some lame excuse and bolted because in that moment i seriously wanted to pull her close and kiss her ):
well! on top of being my multi-year crush she's also one of my very few and probably closest and one of my longest friends and i really, really don't want to hurt her (she openly likes girls i openly like boys and only a few people know i...actually like girls more?) but lol my willpower has been draining year by year. we live super close to each other rn (like 5 minutes away) so ): it's a bad idea though right? she's going to be in another country for four months. is it still a bad idea? probably?
man, i don't know what to tell you. :( this is the kind of thing that could make or break a relationship. if she's going away for a few months, then you might want to wait until she gets back? but at the same time, if you don't kiss her before then and then she leaves for a few months, the pining might grow to critical levels. :(
well, before this she was in china for three months which was the worst because that was probably the longest i've ever gone without seeing her in...eight years. these four months are going to break me ): i should probably wait though. maybe four months will give me enough time to cool my head. alternatively get a boyfriend hahaha...
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