i didn't even know it was arousal lol i just knew that the picture made me feel really good and i wanted it, so i pretended that i wanted the picture on the other side of it (which was a watch) and i told my mom to rip it out for me. but then she wanted to see what was on the other side in case it was something she wanted and i panicked because i knew it was bad for a 10 year old me to have a picture of a naked lady and told her not to turn the page

but i made such a big fuss about her not turning the page that i think she knew anyway lol