don't feel weird! it's hard to figure these things out sometimes. i would recommend still using them tbh because you never know (and i get nervous lol), and especially if you are with multiple partners, because stds. but it does feel nice without once in a while, and there's still no obligation to have the other person ~come inside~. if you want to try without, just wait until you've been on birth control for at least 2 or 3 months so it kicks in.