well! on top of being my multi-year crush she's also one of my very few and probably closest and one of my longest friends and i really, really don't want to hurt her (she openly likes girls i openly like boys and only a few people know i...actually like girls more?) but lol my willpower has been draining year by year. we live super close to each other rn (like 5 minutes away) so ): it's a bad idea though right? she's going to be in another country for four months. is it still a bad idea? probably?